So here’s some stuff that’s happened with me in the last couple weeks, in rough chronological order.
1.
In having a conversation with someone about something else entirely, I recognized something they were describing as something that I’ve been dealing with for most of my life: Dx-level anxiety attacks, but so infrequent (once a year or so) as to be… something curious and strange and sometimes a little scary — but basically just this mystery about Me. I never knew what it was… I had only figured out how to work around it.
Mystery solved. It’s a goofy thing to be happy about, but it’s just amazing to be able to look back at these episodes that I’ve never really told anyone about because they’re weird and hard to explain and they make people look at me very strangely when I *do* explain them, and now I know the why. It’s awesome.
2.
A college friend, my age (who can identify himself here if he likes, or not), had an MRI last week and found out that his massive headaches over the last month were the result of a stroke. There’s a lot of scary stuff there, and (re)raised thought of mortality for me, as well as making me think about the persistence of friendships in the face of… a lot of crap that doesn’t really matter.
3.
Someone said something to me last week that gave me an angle on something that’s been bugging me with the story revision I’m working on. More important, actually makes me *want* to work on it… I hate TeH Revisshun, so that’s really something.
4.
I made a friend of someone a couple months ago who thinks like me. I don’t mean “agrees with” — I mean “processes data the same way.” Experiencing that, you really begin to understand exactly how much of your waking life is spent dealing with people who just aren’t *able* to see things the same way you do, and how much of an effort that is every day.
5.
My daughter…
My. Daughter.
Hmm… I’m going to put number five in a new post, because I just read ‘my daughter’ for the first time, and I want to sit and read it some more.
